RESTLESSNESS
	Legs are bouncing and back muscles are cramping. Need to get up and move but I feel so exhausted. The mind wanders here and there......and then back over to here. Ok, time to get up and move so my body can match the rythem of my thoughts so my head doesnt implode. Pacing back and forth momentarily but now feel the urge to sit. Sitting upright, I crack my knuckles and rapidly tap my feet. The thoughts dart in multiple directions like a swarm of angry bees. I yern for a moment of stillness and tranquility but that time is not now. I stare at the clock which now reads 3:15am. It feels like just ten minutes ago that it displayed 9:30pm, the time I had decided to lay down for the evening. I must change my state of mind and focus which in turn will calm down the physical body. Whatever thoughts infiltrate my mind, I stop giving them attention. Once starved of attention, they fade and die. Instead of identifying with the thoughts, I begin to simply watch the thoughts. I let them just happen without any judgement or emotional investment towards them. They bubble up to the surface, they hang out for a minute, and if no energy is put forth to fuel them, they dissolve. The restlessness then transmutes into a warm, calm serenity and as I lye in repose, I drift off to sleep.
                                                         RESTLESSNESS